HALF WAY THERE!!!!

30 down... 30 to go!!!! I have reached the 1/2 way point of my smaller jeans goal. WOW- it feels good. This is the lowest weight I have had since before I was pregnant with Isabelle- 3 years. It's been a journey to get here- with some detours along the way, but I did it! I think the next 30 will be the most difficult. And, I am wondering if I really have it in me to push myself hard to lose another 30. I think I would happy with 20lbs more. I am also nervous about doing it alone, wondering if I need to join a program or something to have more accountability. To be honest, I thought I would look or feel different when I reached this point. I thought my clothes would fit better/ look nicer. I thought people would be able to tell more (although that's not why I am doing this), and I thought I would have more energy. Frankly, I am exhausted more today than I was 8 months ago.

I have noticed some major thinking patterns that have changed in me. First, I am more conscientious about what I eat and how much I eat. I am able to have a rational thought process about food and "why" I am eating. I am a major emotional eater. And with the emotional roller coaster I have been on for the past 2 years it's no wonder I gained and held onto so much weight, but it feels good to gain some of that control. I will confess, I have not been so rational all the time. I can't resist the chips and cheese my husband brings home from the restaurant next to his...mmm...so good! I also have struggled with wanting to eat late at night, It's fun to have a late snack with Brenton as we watch CSI or something.

I hoping to run more outside before it gets too cold, but our schedule has been nuts lately. Do you think it's against the law to go running around your block when your kids are sleeping and no one else is around??? :) Just kidding, I wouldn't do that. Thanks to all of you who continue to support me in this journey as well as other journeys. Smaller jeans... here I come!