I really have not had much to say lately. Nothing to tell, ask, or report. I've been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting lately on my life; the purpose, future, choices I've made, places I've been, people I know or knew. I can honestly say that there have not been any real "ah-ha" moments, but it's been interesting. I think there are distinct times in my life where I can see the path I've chosen. I see the blessings and consequences that came from those choices. Regrets, some; Disappointments, of course; Love, more than I expected or deserve. This sounds to me like a new year's reflection, but I think it is more a life reflection. Where do I want my life to go in the next phase? Do I really have control of where my life goes? Is this (changing diapers, tieing shoes, disciplining, cleaning up, doing laundry) all there is for me? Is this all that God wants me to do? I never would have written my life like this, not in a million years. But I guess I move forward with contentment and thank God that this is the life I have.
I'm not terminally ill. My children are healthy, active, funny, cute, and loving. My husband works hard so I can stay home. We have a home, car, clothes, food, and many extra things we don't need to survive.
Like I said I have nothing much to say, just a lot of rambling thoughts in my head. It feels good to get them out.
Hey Stephanie-
ReplyDeleteYou ask, is this all God wants me to do? But you are doing one of the most important things you could do. you are raising the future generation to know, love, and serve God - to love others - to be witnesses to future generations. The future needs men and women of God. So while changing diapers, doing dishes, laundry, etc. doesn't seem very important it is. You are being a blessing to your husband and kids so they can be a blessing to others.
You are doing a great job, Stephanie - I am so thankful for you!
PS- your life will change; you will have other opportunities and things to do for God; it happens faster than you might think. Just look at how my life has changed in the years since you met Brenton!